Diary of A Virgin

"so you're saying your a virgin?" Lil asked me in disbelief. I squirmed, and looked over the roomful of diners to see if any of my tables needed anything. An excuse to help a customer would be a welcome relief. It wasn't that I was ashamed to answer. I'd been answering this question for years now. Its just...well, Lil was a single mom. I didn't want to make her feel terrible. But the truth was the truth, and there was no hiding it.

"Yeah. And proud, I wouldn't want it any other way." I answered confidantly. She looked at me in surprise.

"You really are?" she asked again. I nodded. Her expression changed, and became wistful.

"Wow. That's really good." she said slowly, "I should have done that."

"Well, I know I don't want to give myself to anyone except a man who really respects and loves me, and I haven't found that yet. I'm not going to waste my time, and I don't want to be foolish." I explained, trying to have a gentle, yet purposeful tone. Lil looked at me admiringly. She had to give up so much for chosing the exact oppposite I had chose. I knew now she was regretting it.

"Wow." she said again, "that's really good."

"Thanks. Sometimes its hard," I added, trying to make her feel better. She nodded again.

"I'll bet."

Sam jaunted up and slid into the plastic booth next to me.

"I'm on break!" he announced, "what are we talking about?" I flushed. Sam would never understand.

"I'm not telling." I said determindly. Thankfully, Lil would keep her mouth shut. He leaned in.

"Really? Sounds juicy. What?"

"No, really Sam, nothing." I insisted. "It's girl stuff I'd be embarassed to talk to you about."

"Okay," he shrugged, "whatever."

I asked him what was going on in the kitchen. Lil was still looking at me admiringly.