Oh well

its not going to go anywhere, with the ugly guy, i mean.

I have taken the path I never take with males, and that is the path of ignoring.
i'm not nice, i'm not mean, i just leave him alone.
Thats not me, its never me. I'm the one who smiles coyly from above you, who knows you're interested and is only just a BIT more interesting so you feel not quite as cool. Who laughs at your jokes and asks you questions earnestly.I got so used to the role, too, I'm rather lost without it. But I can't do it with him, I can't. So I ignore and leave alone, and know what? Its kind of okay. Not as satisfying, no, but definitely more classy.
I can't tell you WHY i'm doing it differently, I just didn't feel like I could throw him my typical act. He wouldn't fall for it, he'd be annoyed by it, confused by it, or see right through it. Whatever the reason, it just wasn't me that time around. I had to do something different.

Anyway, on top of that he's bisexual. The thought of me, tiny slim hipped long haired hippie girl competing with some sleek muscled man for his attention revolts me. He'll take whatever he can get? No thank you, I thought he had a bit more thoughtfulness than that. Its trippy to even think about.

I'm rather surprisingly disappointed.